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a little bit of bitterness

Posted by inzomaniac on June 20, 2008

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being “in love” which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

“Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.”
St. Augustine

i guess, almost all of us, are waiting for that perfect someone who will sweep our feet off the ground… lucky for those who have found them… too bad for those who have not, count me in…

some of us may find it at their first time, but mostly, went through a lot of pains and heartaches, to learn, to unlearn and to finally meet that special someone… its a process..

i used to question, why can’t we fall in love to only one person in our lifetime, and that person is really the one meant for us… but then, that was a lousy idea of destiny, i guess..

instead, we fall in love twice, thrice and so on, just to go on with life… it may vary in intensity and impact… but the point is you’ve loved.. i symphatize to those who chose to end their lives as their love dies… to end your life is a waste if its for a failed love… but then again, i am not in the position to question their decision, maybe i might do that too in the future, right??? i’ll just cross the bridge when i get there…

we may have different personalities, we may have different outlooks in life, we may cope differently in every situation that comes in our lives…. but we can’t deny the fact that we just wanna love and be loved in return…

i was so torn apart, shattered into pieces and lost…

i just don’t know how to justify love in a sense, that in our time now, being in love with each other seems to be just an excuse to be in a relationship… no committment, no feelings, just plainly you and her/him being together…

it s*cks to think that, for others, its just so easy losing and finding a new love.. its just like finding a piece of coin on the street and owning it…

have i been in love???

YES!!!

am i in love??? TRULY, MADLY, DEEPLY IN LOVE

and what’s the point of bitterness??? cause, i think i’m pushing myself too much to a person that right now i am not sure if there’s still love left for me…. x_X

4 Responses to “a little bit of bitterness”

  1. luting said

    chances of falling in love depends on what you have and need to do..it’s not always “feelings” rather it is labor…

    Love doesn’t sit there like a stone, it has to be made, like bread: remade all the time, made new.
    -Og Mandino

  2. ruins said

    r u thinking that the Love u’ve shared with that someone is just a waste of time?

    it takes two to tango…

  3. inzomaniac said

    to luting:

    yes i understand that love is not just a word that is being delivered… but an action that needs to be proved to make it sincere and real..

    but would it make sense when the other party doesn’t want the relationship anymore… yet, there you are, trying to do everything just to show the ove you have for that person… i guess not…

  4. inzomaniac said

    to ruins:

    no, i don’t think that its a waste of time…

    i never blamed the person nor had any hatred… its just that i underwent to a process and some confusion that i just hoped it never ended..

    maybe i was bitter because it was somehow the love i really wanted during those times…

    it didn’t out… that was when all the pain sinked in…

    i learned through that experience… i never tried to deny the fact that once in my life, i had that person in my life… until now, i still treasure the memories we had…

    that person became a part of me… and is still a part of who i am..

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