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lights camera action! TAKE 2!

Posted by inzomaniac on June 27, 2008

its quite a cliche when people says that “love is sweeter, the second time around”… by the thought of it, yes, definitely, it is very possible that it would be something better than how you previously experienced the relationship…

a lot of factors may affect the said improvement…

it could be that you have known the worst of the worst of your partner, that the next time he/she acts that way, you already know what to do…

the previous experience may also give you more understanding on the personality of the person…

or maybe, with what you’ve been through, nothing can ever come your way again…

but come to think of it…

is it really worth it to stick around just for the fact, of you feeling as if you are at your comfort zone when you’re with him/her?? or exploring the world and searching for 10,000 other possibilities that may happen to your life without that person, way better??

i am just getting confused right now…

a person that broke my heart before seems to be trying to patch things up… the connection that i tried so hard to end, starts to build a new fire in my heart…

its like my kite when i was a kid… i only made one kite in my entire life… it was my favorite kite since it i’ve been through a lot to make it fly high… i was never too possessive and scared, so i just let it fly… i just held on to the string hoping that it won’t fly away.. i trusted my string was strong enough to keep my kite… but then it was not.. my kite got carried away with the wind… it enjoyed more the carefree feeling with the wind… i just cried then, watching my kite flew until all i could see was the horizon..

as the days gone by, i just watch other kids play with their kites and trying to forget the kite that i used to have.. there were days i wish it would come back.. but then it never did… then the day that i almost forgot that i had a kite i loved so much before, came… accidentally, i see this raggedly almost torn into pieces kite stuck on a tree branch… the structure was very familiar.. the design was very distinct… it was my kite… almost broken… then the memories starts to rush back into my senses… i was really happy then.. as i gaze upon the kite, its like its calling me to climb it up and restore it…

unconsciously, voices at the back of my head are whispering to me “why not give myself a second chance to play with my kite”… to rekindle the memories… as i drew nearer to the branch, i realized the danger of me retrieving the kite… the branches are soft and unstable… it can’t hold my weight and there were a lot of uncertainties if i could restore it.. maybe i would just get hurt more than how i was hurt before… then i stopped climbing…

yes… the fear of getting hurt more prohibits myself to allow my heart to fall to that same person again… the depression of losing the kite, i can handle… but going through again in losing the person you love the most, is quite difficult to imagine…

just like how the song goes:

“shame on you if you fool me once…

shame on me if you fool me twice…”

2 Responses to “lights camera action! TAKE 2!”

  1. blogfixes said

    oist.. long time no post.

  2. triste said

    Leo la historia de su cometa…
    Es como la historia de la vida…
    Tenemos tanto miedo a perder… tenemos tanto miedo a llorar…
    maybe tambien tenemos tanto miedo de amar…
    Amar es dar, es perder, es dejar a tu cometa volar y que vaya a donde la lleve el viento…..
    Pero si tu cometa vuelve y esta rota, ya nadie la quiere, ni siquiera tu que fuiste su creador?
    Esa cometa jamas hubiese volado si tu no la hubieras puesto al aire.
    Pudiste guardarla y atesorarla para ti!
    Pero la hiciste volar, y cuando la encontraste, ya no te gusto…
    Si yo soy la cometa, quisiera restauraras con cuidado, quisiera dieras el paso y te atrevieras a creer otra vez.
    la cometa no te abandono…
    Es solo que los frios vientos la trasladaron de aqui y la llevaron alla.
    la cometa siempre espero que llegaras al rescate.
    Si la abandonas nadie lo sabra…
    Quizas se quede desgarrada para toda la vida.
    De todos modos a quien le importa!
    Es solo un cuento de soledad, tristeza y abandono.

    puedes tener una nueva cometa y dejar todo lo pasado atras, es lo que hacen todas las personas…

    Quien se da el tiempo de entender?

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